All posts by jacktrismegistus

I am called Jack. I am an incarnation of all the Jack's that have ever been. My opinions and philosophies are a reflection of said Jack's. The blog is entitled Inglorious Resurrection because like you I have been granted yet another chance, and like you each chance granted becomes more degenerative than the previous. And like you, I yearn for a way out. Jack is my only glimpse of hope because there is a lil Jack in all of us.

I am Holy Ghost (a poem by Jack)

Like a ghost, I float through society..

Not quite seen… And not quite a part of anything..

A thin partition is all that separates me from inexistence… In reality, I can never be embraced… I could never plant my roots because the wind is my only anchor…

I have no backbone because I have no substance… Nothin makes sense to me.. And nothin is real to me… I embrace emotion but it goes right through me… Any semblance of reverberation is ephemeral…

I seek advice from empty people… People rooted in this world.. Who hold stake in this world… Who’s whole meaning of existence is derived from this world… From this very point in eternity.. From this exact space in time… On this very earth.. With that limited perspective…

And I’m supposed to look to them to save me…

Those people are as empty within as I am without… I’d much rather listen to the wind… I may not understand it, but at least it’s honest…and always takes me where I need to go…

It’s not so bad… Never fully seen.. Never fully heard.. Half way between here and never was…

Simply…. Floating…..

Astrological temptress (a poem by Jack)

Beauty in astronomy

The celestial bodies lead my thoughts with precision…

Leaving me to tip toe through life.. Careful with plenty concern…

Yet careless without remorse..

I have empathy for you all… Really…
But it’s such a beautiful day..
My second Sun is rising…
Imagine the apex, flooding me excellence…

I’m shining… My temperature is rising… I’m no longer man, I’m beyond…

rebirthed in myth and legend…

I’m mythical.. A distorted figment of your imagination.. You can’t love me because you can’t see me…

Best you can do is offer up energies…

Pray

And you may see me on your nightmares… A dreary perplexity… Yah… That’s my only remnants… My only trace.. A vestige of what god is without man..

Red Dragon

Hunt me… Kill me… Folklore…
Memorialized upon the celestial…

Gravitate…

I’ll be your second sun…Arise and feel the glory…

It’s warm…. And a bit sticky…

But the fulfillment is well worth it… And the nectar will make you love me….and curse me all the same…

Love to Hate (a poem by Jack)

They’re cold…

The tears that caress my cheeks..

The honesty is refreshing…

For I loved you before I even knew of your existence…

I always felt you coming…

An imminence…of an immanence…

A self fulfilling prophecy… So when you arrived… I finally felt normal…not complete so much as copacetic…

But now this yearning pervades..

Of a strange type… A thirst..

Not for blood.. Not for death… Not for destruction… But just to kill…

Kill what? I don’t know… A worthy foe…

You can’t kill love because it never dies… It only hides and cowers… Constantly shapeshifting into any and all manners of presentation…

But killing love is worth the challenge..

Some things you can’t see without the right perspective…

Sometimes standing under the foot of hate places things in proper perspective…

You can finally see reality for what it is… You can see love and hate as the energy it really is…

The same…

So when I said I loved you before I knew you…

I knew we were never meant to be before you uttered a word..

For that love was slain before it ever could be…

And these chilled tears gliding across my cheeks… Only reinforce what must be done…

And honestly… This hatred is quite refreshing…

Alpha Male vs Beta (Why the Beta man wears the crown..)

Alpha Male Vs. Beta Male:

“How can those women fight over such a loser?”

“They are fighting each other and looking foolish when really they should be fighting him?”

“What’s he got that I don’t got?”

You often hear these phrases or phrases such as these uttered from the lips of so many. You may have uttered them yourself, and sat in awe as to why some women would be so foolish as to give their “all” to some “unworthy” individual. Even to go as far as fighting a complete stranger for their prized possession.

The following discussion may shed some light on the phenomenon—depending on your perspective.  Allow me to set a precipice for our discussion.

We live in a multi dimensional reality. Allow me to define what I mean by such. We live in a superficial or sentient reality that constantly has to reinforce its value structure upon us—the individual, and exert itself upon society as a whole. We also live in an actual reality that is hidden behind the superficial reality but prominently exerts itself upon us—because it is who we are. The two coincide and often clash for one is constantly trying to circumvent the other and prove that which is false.

I entitle the superficial reality the matrix. It is a holographic universe—an illusionary universe built on commerce—the commodity of goods bought and sold.  This reality’s infrastructure is built on the free flow of the commodity market. In this reality, the worth of things is based on a dollar amount. Every item and every transaction has a dollar amount. Even to the point that time equates to money. People become only worth as much as the amount of revenue that they can generate for the system—the matrix. Labor is bought and sold, ideas are bought and sold, services are bought and sold, items are bought and sold, dreams are bought and sold, love is bought and sold, women/men are bought and sold, children are bought and sold. In this reality everyone and everything has a price. This is the reality that we are taught from birth–the reality that is so vigorously instilled in our heads throughout out our matriculation through the institutions of education. It is constantly reinforced through media, entertainment, and pretty much any outlet that you can name.

And then we have the actual reality that is in completely juxtaposed– one that remains perfectly hidden in plain sight. And this is the fact that we are spiritual beings having a human existence—rather some of us are spiritual beings having a human existence. This existence does not place “values” on the individual. This reality knows very little bounds if any and is forever changing and evolving, but its basis stays the same. It is a dual reality– one of physical existence coinciding with that of a spiritual existence. This creates a dualism in itself. This is because these two realities are merged through mediation, by the instrument of the brain, through the function of the mind. Thus you will have individuals with great physical prowess that are deemed alpha and those with great spiritual prowess that are also deemed alpha. One translates very well in the holographic universe the other isn’t always as evident.

These precepts form the basis of our discussion. How is one defined as alpha and how is one defined as beta?

In our current state of existence the idea of an alpha male is very muddied.  The term doesn’t hold wait because the individuals that comprise our society have so many different value structures. You have some who hold money as omnipotent and will deem those with money as alpha males to be revered.  These same people will look down on a man without possessions as being “worthless”.  Some will hold a great athlete in high regard and deem them as being alpha, because of their great physical prowess.  Yet others, will uphold some great musician as being alpha, because they have such a great talent intertwined with a captivating aura—ie more intuned with their spiritual side.

So who indeed is correct?

Is it subjective? –Arguably.

I offer this commentary.  Anything that the holographic universe holds up on a pedestal is more than likely a falsehood.  Individuals have input a system in the place that has allowed them to accrue vast “wealth” and “power” through this current economic structure.  These individuals are seemingly “God’s” of the system because they have the ability to manipulate and dictate so much.  This is counterintuitive to the natural principle of survival of the fittest.  It places a corrupt variable within the equation—which doesn’t allow the fittest of body and spirit the flourish–but the fittest of manipulation to flourish.  And I would argue that these individuals and blood lines are the among the very weakest among us which is why they require this system to survive and maintain their power.

I digress, many among us in society have gift that aren’t necessarily able to be commoditized.  In such, these gifts are never fully developed, never recognized, and often seen in a negative light.  For example, take your typical child diagnosed with “ADD or ADHD”.  This is a phenomenon not understood by society but is treated as something negative that needs to be “solved” with medicine.  When in actuality it could something in the exact opposite light.  It could be a child with such a hyper developed mind that there is no way they can sit still and incur such a remedial –retarded manner of education that the school system forces upon our children.  Their mind is racing to infinity and back and the teachers teaching are stuck on “123” & “ABC”.   This is just one example of many.  We as a society are taught to kill anything not able to be made into a commodity.  In essence we kill everything spiritual unless it is spiritual convenient—ie religion which happens to generate billions upon billions.

So, I believe women tend to be more in tuned with the intuitive: their “feelings”.  Thus they will tend to pick up on these gifts with an individual unknowingly and unwittingly and take a liking to said individual-which brings us full circle.  Perhaps they are not fighting over a “worthless” individual.  Perhaps they are fighting over someone who is really special–someone who is quite the opposite.—someone who has been psychologically traumatized by society.–someone who doesn’t understand their gifts.  Someone who has been convinced their gifts are worthless and have in turn internalized this sentiment and outwardly manifested this pervading motif.–someone who hasn’t found motivation to succeed in the holographic reality and appears to be a “waste”.

This argument provides insight as to why the Beta male wears the crown.  There are many launch points from here that can be expounded upon.  But I will leave it here and leave those thoughts for another blog.

 

Thank you for reading and your responses are welcomed.

Sun birthed kid…. (a poem by Jack$

They call us children of the Sun: the most high.. Cause our skins a lil darker..

But this is a half truth…if not a truth at all… Because I have distinct memories of resting my soul on the moon.. When it was the only earth that mattered…

And this earth was but a nascent sun…a prepubescent energy fresh out the womb…

As with my memory, the moon’s pinnacle is no more.. Only a vestige of a time passed… Debauchery– who knows? A kingdom come? A rulership gone awry….

Must history be fated to repeat itself… For I’m not prepared to seek another sun and make it my earth.. My fire burns deep but not that deep… Not that hot…

I’m yet to be freed from these demons… I can’t survive an apocalypse in this state..

I’m ill fated and unprepared… I’m too stuck in the present to transcend my past… Let alone attempt to rearticulate some semblance of a future..

My soul isn’t dense enough.. My light isn’t bright enough… My clay can’t be formed because the master mason has too many back orders to fill…my fire doesn’t burn hot enough…

Perhaps one day we will be ready..

Before this earth, too, burns out…

Songless Bird (a poem by Jack)

Nothing to gain… Everything to lose…

Peace from above… War from below… Yet war has been declared from above…

And we’re all feeling it’s glow.. White hot ember burning holes through our consciousness…

One man stands up!

And it’s just another toe tag to add to a pile of indifference…

Put em on a pop culture pedestal… JFK….Malcolm… ODB..

But let their message rot with their corpse…

Necro.. Negro… Spook..

Who’s dead… Who’s alive..

From the ashes we rise… Because you can’t kill fate… Like the Phoenix we carry on undaunted.. Fighting…

Singing a song that never ends… The song bird echoes…

And the others naturally chime in…

When will you sing… Or is waiting idly on the sideline the only reality you see..

Football… Christ… Emmy… Blow.. Al Qaeda…

Are these the truths that resonate…

Holding your voice hostage… Singing a mute song that has no melody…

Yet we have everything to gain because we’ve lost it all…

A perpetual war…that knows no end… Like yin hating yang and yang constantly fighting to prove its love for yin…

Either speak or forever be silenced… Either sing along or be crushed by the spirit of the movement…

Melancholy Boy (a poem by Jack)

Sittin in the depths of hell.. Who can I call on when it’s goin all wrong…

He needs help…

I swear the same voices begging me not to do it… Were the same voices that persuaded me in the first place..

But it’s all in my head…

They called me a liar… Uttered things like… “Things aren’t as they seem…. But you can fix that..”

“We’ll show them all..”

We were a team.. I had their back and they told me that they had my back..

The voices tell me lots of things…

Like who should die and who should live…

They never give reason though… They never persuade, only mandate…

But I’m tired of being bullied… By words that don’t exist…

And now they are begging me not to do it…

Spare innocence… Wake up… This ain’t right…

I’m not confused.. They want me to be confused… And since I let one voice in.. They all want to jump in and give their two cents worth..

Well fuck em… Fuck em… Fuck em..

I’m doing what we set out to do.. You’re either with me…

Or like this innocence… You can become nothing….

And we’ll see who my true friends are… Because I can always call on them…

And as long as I’m open minded they’ll always have something to say…

Neverland part 1 — beta tested.. Welcome… (a poem by Jack)

Pictures speak a thousand words..
Symbols scream a thousand pictures…

Captures imaginations– holding them for ransom…

Yet what you see isn’t always what you get..
To distinguish illusion from reality… Blurs the line between life and death…

Life will eat itself until the mind grows absolutely insane.. And all that you see are images… Screaming images… Raging symbols..

Not a man… Not a word… Just rampant energies running amuck… All presenting something they are not..

Then I shall welcome you to my world… A lovely world where math isn’t god… Nothin adds up… Because you can take away what you want…

You can be death herself if you so feel… No words ever spoken and no actions needed… Because in this world you can see without sight and like your world you can die without ever having lived…

Welcome to Neverland…

Wounded Drummer boy… (a poem by Jack)

Condom wrapper…torn open… lays on a lamp stand..

The smell of used condom and remnants of a blown out candle permeate…

They are my only evidence that she was ever here…

She left as quickly as she came..

And I know I’m not supposed to grow attached, but I have..

The beat.. And rhythm of her sway is what did it… The drum of her heart is what did it…

I could hear every oscillation and found my thoughts syncing with her bass…

It’s the bass..

I need to hear it again…

But… It was supposed to be simple.. I wasn’t to be attached.. I’m to play my role..

And hope she heeds..

Hope she comes back to beat my drum one more time…

There really is no point… For I know she beats for another…

Vibrations bursting in melody.. A melody beyond lust…

I’m too insecure for all this..

Too many conclusions for my mind to jump to…

I need that drum… I need my drum… I need any drum..

Ba dum ba dum dum…..

Any sound better than the rhythmic drip of would be tears.. Of a would be sentiment… Of a would be heart.. That I haven’t had in years..

Once broken I never bothered to repair it…

So I’ve been wondering…
Beatless for years…

And maybe it’s not her particular drum but the cadence that I need.. The familiarity that I need…

The evidence of a drum beat that once carried the beat for: mind body and soul to groove along… In a boy like harmony–eager to love and not afraid of the ramifications…

But it’s those damn ramifications… That stole the beat from my drum…

The only shadow of my drum left.. Is her…

The only trace of her… Is this torn condom wrapper…

A shallow boom only meant for a night…

Ba rum pa bum bummmm…..

Does the sport make the star or does the star make the sport? Black Stars Burn Brightest…

It is without doubt that Professional Sports plays a major role in the lifeblood of America.  It does everything from pushing the economy forward,to providing heroes for the youth to aspire towards, to galvanizing entire regions across cultural lines.

Yes, America loves its Sports.  Some may even go as far as to say that the ritual of Sunday football has replaced the ritual of attending Church. The energy once used to worship “God” has been averted to the anticipation, elation and praising of football teams and their stars.

Indeed America loves its sports and the stars that they produce.

2015/01/img_4161.pngAmerica loves its athletes.  We are no different than any other civilization, just like the Romans of yesteryear, we hold our Gladiators in High Esteem.  In fact we hold our stars in high esteem no matter what arena they participate in.  As long as they are an entertainer, there will be somebody that can relate to them and there to give praise.

The argument arises, does the sport make the star or does the star make the sport.  Conventional thinking would lead one to believe that no one person is bigger than the sport.  Like David Ruffin and the Temptations no one part can thrive without the sum.  But I would beg to differ.  Perhaps no one single person can persuade the game one way or another, but a subset can have a tremendous impact on the popularity of said sport.  And I have food for thought, that may offer strong persuasion.

Let’s look at the most popular sports in America, currently Football reigns supreme; followed by basketball and at a distant third baseball.  There was a time when Baseball claimed the thrown, and then it struggled to keep it but eventually capitulated and gave way to the current king–Football.

But Why?

Is it a direct result of a shift in the demographics of America.  Is it due to the fast pace society that we live in and the American continuum wants a fast pace sport to parallel its pacing.  Or is it something subconsciously deeper than that.

Follow me, America has an affinity for its stars and in particular its Black stars.

2015/01/img_4162.pngLet’s look at a low hanging fruit—Golf.  I don’t have the numbers but I can definitively correlate the spike and decline of golf with the oscillation of Tiger Wood’s Greatness.  He single handedly brought the sport from the rungs and gutters of popularity to the forefront of American Consciousness.  As his “Scandle” ensued and his decline in play sprang forth as did the popularity of Golf.  Just look at the ratings.

America loves its Black Stars.

2015/01/img_4163-0.pngLet’s take a look at the sport of female tennis.  Can we say it received a jolt of enthusiasm with the influx of a certain two sisters?  I’m not even sure how much relevance the female tennis world captured without that shining Eastern Star Serena and her sister Star Venus.

America loves its Black Stars.

2015/01/img_4164.pngBasketball  was a sport on the fringes of being popular.  A sport with an identity crisis, it didn’t know if it wanted to be great or not.  Back in the 80’s the NBA was on the verge of something special with star power of Bird and Magic.  These stars shined indeed but they weren’t enough to bring the NBA to the Billion dollar business that it is today, sitting comfortable in the royal court of the King–Football.  No—it was arguable the brightest black star of all time—the marketing creation of one Michael Jordan.  This bright star single handedly carried the NBA on his back–the Tiger Woods before Tiger Woods.  Before him, 100 million dollar contracts were unheard of.  He parted the Red Sea and allowed for the NBA to ascend to the peak of its popularity.

America loves its Black Stars.

2015/01/img_4165.pngFootball—the king in this sports jungle.  Now football is a bit of an anomaly I would admit.  It is a sport flooded by Black stars but you can honestly say there is no polarizing figure.  In fact, it is a sport that hails its white stars.  Yet footballs popularity didn’t increase until it received an infusion of Black athletes if not stars.  The 80’s is when football first spotted it’s opening for the crown, but it wasn’t until Baseball, former King, exposed its chink in its armor.  A sport that thought it was too Big for its Black Stars, which eventually led to its downfall.  Yet as we see today, football sits atop its thrown gazing over its kingdom as it embraces its litany of Black Stars.  And baseball looks at what was, and like a scorned lover: looks back on what could have been.

America loves its Black Stars.

This brings us to Baseball, “America’s Past Time”.

2015/01/img_4166.pngWhat happened to Baseball?

Suicide happened. –Self-inflicted misery by way of Pride. I will tell you what happened, Baseball and the powers to be got fed up.  It got fed up with its Black stars.  It became fed-up with the arrogance of seeing these young Black Stars shining so brilliantly.  It grew tired of these young flashy, wealthy, insolent stars.  It felt, man, talent is multi-cultural; I can replace these egregious, haughty black stars with colored stars from another land.  Yah, that’s it…I’ll go down and get these Latin American stars that look the same and play the same and we’ll teach them.  But its plan backfired.

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Because  America loves its Black Stars.

Key word being “its”.  Not someone else’s Black stars, America loves its Black Stars.  I would argue that the decline in Baseball popularity is a direct result of its systematically ushering out of its Black Stars.  The same arrogance and haughty nature it despised is the same arrogance and haughty nature America seeks to embrace.  We love our Dennis Rodman’s.  We love our Dion Sander’s.  We love our Mike Tyson’s.  We love to hate our Lebron James’s.  We love our Charles Barkley’s.  No matter what form or fashion they come in—we Love our Black Stars.

There is a deeper issue here as to why this axiom is true, but that is for another blog at another time.

Baseball should take it as a lesson learned.  Although, without the sport there would be no superstar one could clearly see that without the superstar the sport doesn’t quite shine.