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30 for 30 Rand University (A response)

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A reflection upon a revealing documentary… Although, I felt the documentary was insightful, It appears to be a story within a story. A story unfulfilled because to be quite frank the story is uncomplete– a skeleton without muscle or organs. The documentary is centered around polarizing professional athlete Randy Moss (one of my favorites). Like so many other melaninated athletes the documentary depicts his plight from tremendous odds to athletic immortality. The documentary explores his troubles with the law as a youth. His psychological response to racism (a people who want you only for your athletic prowess and nothing more). Also, his perpetual fight with the myopia that the small town life fostered. And his overcoming perseverance that led to his seemingly apparent success…This documentary addresses it all.

A private figure… Randy actually opened up and shed a light upon a portion of who he is. This allowed insight into the psyche of so many young melaninated males in similar dichotomies.

I describe this as a story half told because of an aspect of the documentary that struct a nerve with me. The documentary is entitled Rand University. This is attributed to the fact that there are so many exceptional athletes produced in that region but never make it “out”. In fact most of em “end up drinking 40 ounces outside of 7-11” This is what the locals deem Rand University. All the prodigious athletes graduate high ftschool and attend an existence of nothingness and forsaken hope.

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This is an exponential tragedy because Rand University have campuses in every state in every city in every town across the United States of America. So many young men are living under a delusion.. A very strong delusion… The implanted truth that the only road to success in America is through being praised by America. The avenues to being praised or beloved or embraced by America is through physical prowess(athletics) or showmanship (musician or entertainer). This is a grave tragedy. An unspoken axiom that goes unchecked and unchallenged. And I myself am not exempt from this delusion.. Growing up, even I thought that that was the only means of “success”. I do not know where this mentality came from exactly. I do not know where it took root. It wasn’t as though I was not exposed to professionals of melanin. It just always seemed as though nothing else was attainable. It seemed “possible” and I knew I had the “ability” but it never felt real or achievable…

What general consensus has swept young melaninated people’s to put all their hope in their ability to be embraced by the masses. Without that “love” they feel worthless. Without that hope they are cursed to live a destitute life of nothingness.. As I said I am of no exception.. I was always told to go to college… But I never felt or saw an end game. This has stunted my “progress” in life. I saw college as an ends… Not a means to an end and this has left me some what stuck… Trying to figure it all out. I’m at least lucky enough to have the wherewithal to try to figure it out.. As this documentary highlights, there are so many of my brothers who simply lose hope after the initial dream is shattered.. After one run in with the law… After one ill placed tragedy… They are left with nothing…. No direction… No ambition.. And without hope!

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There is one part in the documentary that embodies this spirit. It’s when one of Randy Moss’ childhood friends who didn’t “make it out” is recounting his mishap.. Retelling how he lost his opportunity.. He simply broke down and cried. As though his world no longer had meaning because of a dream unfulfilled. Yet, in reality he is a young man… Under the age of 40… He has all the world to gain… No matter the circumstance it all can turn around… It starts with one idea and a whole lot of drive and determination.

But, so many of our brethren don’t have that idea… That thought never enters their mind. The seed just lands on harsh soil and never takes root.

Why?

How do you break this psychosis if it alone defines your reality? And you know nothing beyond your reality…

Is it the responsibility of a society to look after its individuals? Is it the responsibility of the individual to save himself by any means necessary? Is this mentality of individualism productive to the collective? How does an individual with nothing to lose react when they feel it’s them against the world? Who seeks to gain from the decisions that this individual will potentially make. Prison industrial complex? Illicit drug industry? Etc?

So we are left with an untold story. The story of one shining star. One individual who defied the odds. A survival of the fittest narrative played out to perfection. Yet, the nature of humanity isn’t so much a survival of the fittest, but a survival of the collective. The true issue is why so many individuals are innately not part of the collective unless they “earn” their way in. Why are some born on the outside looking in? Why is that generally accepted?

Why must one earn their way into a society that they have no way of escaping?

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How long will we allow Religion to Rape our Spirituality…

The exploitation of spirituality by religions across the world…

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Spirituality and religion are two realms that can be mutually exclusive but happen to coincide more often than necessary.   If I dare use this comparison: I view Spirituality as the victim of a psychologically abusive abductor in the form of Religion.  This may be quite a sensitive subject because, as Stockholm syndrome would dictate, we have fallen in love with our capturer.  We are under the illusion, a comfortable subjective truth, that Religion is dogma—that religion is absolute truth, that religion is our savior.  Since our capturer has provided all of our spiritual pfood, shelter, comfort, and fulfillment—it must certainly be the complete gamma of what spirituality has to offer.  We have identified with our capturer so much so that some of us have laid down our lives in the name of our religion.  Some of us have murdered in the name of our religion.  Some of us have stolen innocence and destroyed entire cultures in the name of our religion.  Some have sacrificed our first born in the name of our religion. So, what is this phenomenon known as religion and why is it distinguishable from spirituality?

Is there more to a spirit than what the constraints of language, imagery, expectation, and imagination can conceive?

I consider Religion a parasite.  A contrived parasite that has latched on to something very real that is spirituality– a living breathing entity that is constantly evolving.  As per my philosophy we (at least a fair portion of us) are light or spirit beings having a human experience.  However one may choose to articulate the matter: whether we be vibrational beings, energy beings, or light beings to me it is all leading to the same source.  One’s spirituality can not be denied or hidden.  Most have an innate sense that we’re here for a “greater purpose”.  Most have an unquenchable thirst to know “why” they are “here”.  The seed has been sown in all of us.  Now this journey to the source isn’t necessary easy or necessarily our purpose.  But religion has provided a gross over-simplification of a complex issue.

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Religion has taken the concept of spirituality and held it hostage.  What is meant to be a means of freedom, a means of open communication of information, a medium of exchange, a medium of healing, a medium of empowerment has been replaced.  It has been replaced with strict dogmas that reduce everything to the black and white.  It has been replaced with spiritual atrophy. Man is convinced to disempower themselves and allow for their savior or external source to dictate the fates of their lives.

Many of the underdeveloped gifts that spirituality has bestowed upon us bleed through the oppression of religion.  There are revelatory gifts that some encompass in which religion cannot quiet.   There are untapped resources of physical self-healing that exist despite being taught otherwise. They call it the placebo effect—but it’s nothing more than the nescient or nascent ability of the mind to heal using our spiritual strengths.  Some of us have the ability to manifest our own futures by “speaking things into existence” and others have the ability of foresight (to know what is to come of us).  Ever been thinking of something and the person next to you seemingly reads your mind—and verbalizes what you were thinking?  Perhaps this was preverbal spiritual truth—how we as beings communicated before our de-evolution into our current state.

I do not know all of the gifts that our spirits have to offer but I am aware enough to know that they exist and have courage enough not to deny their presence.  But this is not an exposition of man’s gifts.  This is an exposition of how the regulation of these gifts has been used to victimize us.  How these gifts have been stifled and replaced with a rudimentary quality of life and existence. Some of the most powerful beings on this planet have the slightest idea of their potential.  Brilliant minds and brilliant souls are falling to the wayside. –And in the name of what?

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Now I don’t want to completely condemn religion because it does have its place.  It can be the building block of something special.  It teaches discipline and can provide a launching off point of where spirituality can take us.  We all have various levels of intelligence and discernment and maybe religion can be something great for a portion of society.  But to deem it the end all be all is tragic– fatal. And it keeps the gifted among us from being valued, from elevating our species, and helping to repair our collective consciousness.

How do we break the chains of our oppressor?  How do we leave our oppressor if we love our oppressor?  Is being in captivity so bad if I’m being taken care of?

When one manipulates the possibilities of the inevitable it impedes growth.  When you start people off and dictate the end result of their life before they are even born there is no room for growth. Their whole life is oriented towards achieving one destination or avoiding the other.  Spirits are meant to grow, expand, engage, create, and so forth.  None of this is possible when the possibilities don’t exist in the mind…If the possibilities can’t even be fathomed.. The existence can’t even begin to be manifested…

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Rebuilding the Black Woman… Guardians of our Souls..

Kara Walker’s piece ” A Subtlety” is the launch point of this blog. An image that has provided the impetus for an exploration of our subconscious mind’s primary motif– an artistic requiem of glory lost.

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A rear view of the sculpture…

This blog will begin to scratch the surface regarding the significance of the image of the Black Woman. It is a reflection upon the restoration of the Black-woman archetype and her/its importance to humanity.

One look upon Kara Walker’s work opens up the vastness of a million portals–portals leading to truths of both past and present. In this larger-than-life sculpture, Kara depicts a modern rendition of a Sphinx like figure. We have the likeness of a woman crafted out of all white sugar. The woman has a “mammy” resemblance to her that is accentuated by the adornment of her crown with a scarf–something you may be used to seeing atop the head of Harriet Tubman. Her bust is large and exposed as if she were offering her bosom for suckling to any onlooker. In place of an animal body the figure maintains its womanly-curvaceous physique. All capped off by a vagina exposed from the rear view of the sculpture. Depending on the frame of reference of the viewer, we have a hyper-sexualized image of a woman. All the while the woman has a smirk on her face. Almost like she is taunting the observer to explore the depths that she has to offer. As if to say you can scratch the surface but you have the slightest idea how deep it can get.

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We can juxtapose this image to that of the actual Sphinx. The image of a regal guardian spirit that stands poised in protecting her city– from a spiritual stand point and an authoritative stand point– a guardian queen if you will.

The two images side by side depict how far the Black Woman has been exiled from her thrown. And also the moral degradation that has gone hand in hand with this vanquishing of her archetype…

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The archetype of the Black Woman has a universally visceral response to all that experience it. Her presence is never subtle. It is encompassing and this is evident on both a conscious and subconscious level. The vibrations that her spirit gives off is undeniable and often commands respect in one fashion or another.

She has fallen from the Creator-of-Man era…

To the Queen– the Ruler-of-Man era..

To the Mammy the Caretaker-of-Man era….

Too the hyper-sexualized– the Whore-of-Man era…

And along with her fall from grace has come the destruction of societal morality and spirituality. Yet her fall has not been of a natural order. It has been carried out in a systematic manner by the would be ruler of the present era. Her ruling archetype type has been assaulted and bombarded by her rival and polar opposite that of the White Male. A patriarchal dominated society who’s morality encompasses all but not limited to: greed, avarice, licentiousness, wanton, gluttony, selfishness, and anything else that appeals to one’s flesh induced desires.
This patriarchal archetype whether it be consciously or subconsciously is perpetually attempting to strip the Black female archetype of all power and authority. Yet as the “Subtlety” has proven… You can change her image but she will never leave her post…

As per popular culture the image of the Black woman is both imitated and mocked. There is a relentless assault upon the motif of the Black Woman. She is often both ridiculed and mimicked–creating a paradox of a unique kind. On the one level she is mocked but on a deeper level she can’t help but to be imitated as she is the purveyor of all civilization.

There is attempt to bring about a new way among the people of this planet. The key to providing the perfect segue into this way of being is the removal of our humanity. And the cornerstone of our humanity is the Black woman. There is an attempt to usher in a new era. One in which man is devoid of spirituality… Devoid of uniqueness.. Devoid of his bond with the universe… Supplanting himself as above or without integration into nature.. Almost as though we were transfiguring ourselves into machines…

Our humanity is what is at stake. There is a war going on that no man is safe from. And if we don’t protect our guardians on the most basic of levels. How do we expect them to protect us on the most critical of level–that which can not be seen and is ever changing? How long can they stand guard if they lack sense of Self? And we lack sense of perspective?

God Save the Queen (A blog about freedom…)

The energy and effort individuals place into achieving their slice of the American pie is incredible.  Parents sacrifice their children.  Men sacrifice their bodies.  Women sacrifice their relationships all for the satisfaction of an appetite quenched.

And what is this illusion that everyone is after?

Some call it happiness.  Others call if money.  The term quality of life comes to mind. Is it anything more than self-indulgence?  Is it anything more than a façade—because, fulfillment cannot be gained through the destruction of one’s humanity.  One can spend their entire energies pursuing a career and letting the world around them crumble only keeping the ends in mind—for the ends always justify the means.

Yet I’m not here to condemn for that would make me a hypocrite, but the blame has allowed my mind to wonder.  A man could spend their entire life beating up their body pursuing an athletic career, if the idea of freedom was placed in front of them what then would they be willing to sacrifice.  A woman can spend her entire life pursuing a rewarding career, sacrificing her domestic life forgoing the conception of children and all for what? If she will do all of this for a “quality of life”; then what would she be willing to sacrifice for complete and whole freedom?
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As is our entire frame work—our brain is wired towards the propagation of the monster called America.  Whether we realize it or not, we sacrifice all we have in order to keep this monster alive.  It entices us with glory, superficial reward, comfort and stability–But at what price—broken families, fractured psyches, hopeless lives, insecure self-perception, and no knowledge of self? So she as monster turns man into lesser monsters.   And our reality mutates into a hive complex in which the lesser monsters will give their lives in order to keep the Queen alive and thriving. She provides the sweet nectar of “freedom” and we give her any and every thing we have in return.

Our queen happens not to be righteous but greedy and full of insatiable desire.

Does her scope go beyond America?  Does she rule the entire planet?  Is there anywhere on this earth you can go and feel free?

Are we here to help ourselves as individuals at the expense of all others, or are we here for a purpose outside of one we can perceive for ourselves.

Could we be freed from the hive? Yet operate as a righteous hive.  Could the Queen be dethroned and replaced by a collective consciousness?  Does man need a Queen to fill complete, to fill like their lives has purpose and meaning?  Is there more to us than this human experience—and if so, how do we come into the realization of such? Because our Queen is omnipotent among us how do we transcend and usurp the power and hold she has on us.  Must we engage in drown like daily activity that slowly chips away at our humanity?

It begins with the individual.  Ideals of success rarely include family and community.  These ideals that we pursue are always things and things are replaceable.  These ideals of success aren’t necessary organic in nature, perhaps a lifetime of conditioning has influenced our perception of what it means to be successful.
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So we have this spirit of freedom or lack thereof juxtaposed with the spirit of dominance. Why do some seek to dominate others?– from a personal stand point to a societal stand point… What motivation do they have? Is it derived out of a need to feel validated by the hive? By dominating and controlling others do they feel closer to the Queen? Is it a sense of validation through the sense of exertion?–Because the hive will not approve of me.—Because the hive will not approve of the honest expression of me, I will impose myself upon the hive.  I will become my own queen and dictate the desire of the hive in one fashion or another.  Is that the motivation of some to deprive the freedom of others?

This omnipresent Queen we have in America has produced millions of offspring throughout the nation—little monsters who seek to be like her in every way.  Little monsters who believe they are all knowing and seek to dominate in all aspects of life.  Supercilious monsters that spring up everywhere believing they know more than anyone else. Monsters that dictate how you should have fun, who you should love, how you should live, what you should value, how you should dress, who you should worship, how you should express yourself—because after all the monster knows best.

I leave you with this.  Is a queen really a Queen if she constantly has to prove and demonstrate that she is Queen…

Are you Black Enough?

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Are you Black Enough?

I begin this Blog with a quote from the great Dr. Frances Cress Welsing.  Many people have no idea of what racism is and throw around the term “racist” without discretion.  They use the term in great folly and error without giving much meaning as to what the term actually embodies.  Dr. Welsing provides the most encompassing working definition of what racism is, and when understood it sets a precedent upon the observer and alters their outlook of the world in which they operate within.

Her definition of racism:

“A local, national, global system— behavioral system of thoughts, speech, action and emotional response consciously and or subconsciously determined practiced by people who classify themselves as white in all areas of people activity: economics, education, entertainment, labor, law, politics, religion, sex and war for the ultimate purpose of maintaining white genetic survival and preventing white genetic annihilation on planet earth.  A planet upon which the overwhelming majority of people are classified as non-white by the minority of people who classify themselves as white.  Those who are classified as non-white are genetically dominant in terms of skin coloration compared to the genetically recessive white skin-people.”– Dr. Frances Cress Welsing

I would also add to this comprehensive definition the hording and allocation of the earth’s natural resources.  This inclusive definition implicates so much and one could literally derive several essays from this one definition.  And this shall provide the spring board for our discussion.

I was recently asked a question: How do you determine how Black someone is?  Are you black enough?  If so what does that entail?  Now of course one can not quantify black, but I can provide a definitive exploration of what it means to be Black.  And you can see what side of the spectrum you fall upon.

Truthfully, we all have a li’l black in us… It’s a conscious choice rather to identify with it or repel from it…

At the very core one must understand that they are a conquered people…And I am speaking from a Black-man-living-in-America’s perspective. One must understand that they are indeed identifying with their capturers when choosing to perpetuate their system that is in place: whether this be consciously or unconsciously…

So if one uses the term “you’re not black” or “you’re not black enough”, what is that person truly saying?  When one says oh you’re trying to “talk white” what are they truly stating? If you are called a “sale out” what does that mean?

On a conscious level these statements sound very ignorant. It implicates because you have success, because you have brains enough to fulfill the white man’s idea of success you’re being white.–Because after all only a white man can be smart, have nice things, and speak the Queen’s English. On a surface level it is indeed very ignorant… But one must not stop there, because it is usually the subconscious that drives us. It is the subconscious that is subversive and responsible for most of man’s actions… It is our “ancient brain” telling us that there was a way of life prior to this modern world we live in.  There was a way of interaction and purpose that we as a populace exacted before we became a conquered people. This is not oue natural dialect.  This is not our innate ideal of “success”—the pursuit of money and other superficial gain. Perhaps there was much more to who we are than what we’ve become and have been presented ourselves to be.

So, there is a cognitive dissonance held there of some sort.  On the one hand we are a very talented people. We are pioneers of the earth, so when presented with a challenge it is innate for us to overcome.  So, we excel in this system put in place and tend to blame others for their lack of acumen in which they can’t succeed. It’s their fault… They had the same opportunities as me… Blaming the victim complex because after all it helps us create a disconnect from who we really are.  After all they aren’t like me.  We’re different. I can’t possibly be like them… I’m better…This is a great untruth. A truth rooted in falsehood. Although, I do believe that we all are unique, and the fact that one has climbed a social and cultural latter better than someone else is no grounds for identifying “greatness”.

Thus on some level I can honestly say we all have “black” in us.  We all have the ability to be great, lend hand to brother, establish communities in which man is brothers’ keeper, use talents for the betterment of most not just self, have the courage to be who you are minus the social constructs.  Yet some of us choose to identify with the false truth of reality that has been placed in front of us by our captives.  Our “Ancient Brains” know it is not enough.  Thus we seek outlets—we seek drug abuse, we yearn to get high, we yearn for something “else” something “real”.  Some of us identify with our conquerors so much that we hate the very hair that’s on our head. This is quite ironic, because our conquerors have integrated their captives’ culture into all aspects of their society.–Using it as a means of economic gain by any exploit they see fit.

The feeling of complacency… The feeling that you’ve made it is that which is to be loathed…. The feeling that you’ve accomplished in this world and you choose not to shake up the system that has conquered you… That’s when a lil blackness begins to bleed out… Drip by drip… At that point you are consciously or subconsciously surrendering your bloodline (legacy) and capitulating to a system that has your brothers and sisters in servitude…

This creates a large schism between those with the wherewithal to pursue excellence by all means and the, what I like to call, natural nihilist.  Both are equally destructive to what it means to be Black yet one is looked on a favorable light by our conquerors.  You have those who pursue excellence by any means which have had great success—like our entertainers, athletes, upper middle-class folk.  All are looked upon favorably as something to strive for—an ideal that reinforces the established system.  Then you have the nihilist—those who reject society by any means.–The derelicts who choose to abuse the system—who are looked as being criminals, lazy, jobless, ignorant, violent, compulsive if you will.–Those individuals who have a natural propensity for rebellion but know no viable rather healthy means to manifest this rebellious nature.  So you have this vicious cycle of each hating the other.–Each recognizing the lack of blackness in the other.  The blame game occurs.  When in actuality both are right to an extent and both are completely misguided in their approach to rectifying and creating a better situation.

Thus I can conclude this disposition by answering what I believe it means to be Black.

It means to constantly be in pursuit of the truth.  It is a realization that you may not have all the answers, but you are going to be who you are regardless of the situation.  It is greatness and excellence despite circumstance.  It is the courage to stay resolute and shake up the norm because the norm is forever evolving.  Black is discipline.  Black is not all about I.  Black is love.  Black is rebellion.  Black is self-sacrifice.

Are you black enough?

A Leader of One’s Self (Perhaps the Sheep should herd the Shepherd…)

Leadership is a very enigmatic subject for me.  I am full of ambivalent and conflicting opinions on the matter.  In my most fundamental belief, I feel every man has the obligation to be leaders of them-self(s) and should have the right to do so.  Yet, I myself have a natural leadership/rebellious quality to myself that tends to attract others.  I don’t know if it is some type of gravitational pull but admittedly such it is evident.  Thus I feel–yes, if a man is willing to be led, well then, that man should be led.  He is not void of all responsibility of himself but he knows that he is lacking in certain areas and is willing to be led.  And maybe that man is not lacking at all but has a sense that another has a greater vision than theirs and feels obliged to help see that vision through.  That has very little to do with competence but recognizing the “greater good” if you will.

From my observation, the majority of the general population is grossly lacking critical thinking skills.  I don’t know if they’ve been conditioned not to think for themselves but many of them don’t.  This may be due to a various amount of factors—mainly the nurturing vs. environment dynamic.  I view that the mind and its capacities is on par with any other muscle in the human body.  If it is not engaged or stimulated many of its faculties become stagnate and/or dormant or weakened. Thus with this lifelong inactivity of utilizing critical thinking skills, I am not sure if these people have developed the competence to think for themselves at this point.

You can watch a typical cluster of people become swayed by just about anyone utilizing some form of low-reaching dysfunctional-logic.  There is a clear divide between the clever and the dull witted.  And the dull witted heavenly outnumber the clever. This tends to create a grand amount of problems.

The question then becomes: Is it the obligation of the few, who are capable, to lead the many.  Or is it the responsibility of the individual to lead themselves.  A better scenario perhaps: is it the responsibility of those being led to hold the leader accountable.  But this would require an informed general population one that isn’t lazy enough to just trust a leader to do right by them.  A bit of a catch 22 because an informed individual could very well lead them-self(s).

So when you take this passive mindset and ideology and apply it towards religion, politics and popular culture one can quickly see the danger of this phenomenon.  On the flip side there are opportunities available for a healthy-conscious-righteous leader.  And if one were to emerge from among us all that has been made wrong could be reversed exponentially faster than it has been corrupted.  It is our obligation has individuals to lead, if not leading others to lead ourselves and become an informed public.  So that one day we can provide the platform for such a leader to exist.  And not so much exist, for they are among us, but become…

An informed public creates for healthy public opinion…

Because the mind doesn’t Perceive… Does it not exist?

Many of our Ancient Brain Mental Faculties are falling by the wayside side…

And what do I mean by Ancient Brain?

I consider the Ancient Brain to be comprised of the subconscious mind…The instincts and genetic gifts that have been passed down via DNA since the origin of man.  It also includes a collective consciousness that we all share and binds us as humans.  As opposed to our modern brain which allows us to navigate through our current reality. Our modern brain is everything we’re conscious of and allows us to make our day to day decisions.

This entry is somewhat of a commentary on the opinions within the book The Human Zoo by Desmond Morris.  In his book he mentions something fairly obvious but an idea my mind had never grasped.  He expressed that as humans we essentially are living beyond our evolutionary scope.  As organisms we were designed to live freely amongst nature, among the trees, the water, the animals and open air.  Conventionally we live confined to a “prison” of brick and mortar essentially.  We wake up in a boxed room, we go to work in a box with wheels, we sit in a boxed room for eight hours (in some cases a cubical inside of a boxed room), then go home and derive comfort from looking at a box with lights.  We indulge in a surplus of foods that our bodies aren’t designed to handle.  And this wasn’t a slow build up: this is Pow! –A less than thousand year phenomenon.   We went from an active way of life for millions of years to suddenly a sedentary life style that over works our internal organs.

This modern world we live in has deprived men of many of their instincts and “gifts” that were previously seen as valuable but are no longer deemed as such.  I believe many of the mentally enigmatic are discarded in this modern world because of lack of “Necessity”.  This may be true, in this world in which we rely on technology to speak our truths and tell us what’s what. And define to us our very realities: from what will bring us happiness and fulfillment to who we see as our enemies. The mental faculties that were once harnessed and groomed for a particular purpose (not implying to know what that purpose is or was) are now discarded and thrown to the wayside.  I believe a lot of our “prophets” and “feelers” are either homeless or in mental institutions.  While others have successfully hidden their gifts in aims of integrating within society peacefully. And it’s easy to diagnose someone with a “sickness” or “mental illness” without having any frame of reference but the modern world that we live in.  The modern world where things have been made so simple and so black and white.  A modern world in which man has deemed himself god—all knowing—the judge of all.  But if we have outpaced ourselves physically on the evolutionary path who is to say we haven’t taken the inverse effect mentally–psychologically– spiritually.

Perhaps these mental outburst are life’s way of letting us know that we aren’t necessarily going down the right path. –That perhaps life isn’t all that we perceive it to be.  That perhaps there are abstracts that our five senses can’t articulate to our conscious mind but it takes a specifically oriented mind to even pick up the frequency. And because the majority can’t grasp this phenomenon we deem it as preposterous because after all we make the rules.  In the modern world we are judge, jury, and executioner.

The ranges of these gifts are very vast.  Some are more in tuned than others, some have more gifts than others, and some have greater degrees than others…Many have no idea how to harness these gifts or even have any idea that they have gifts.  It’s something we aren’t taught about within the modern world and something that if manifested is usually “cured” with a pill.  Simply because many of these gifts don’t have healthy means to manifest themselves they often time present themselves in an incorrigible manner.  A corrupted manner in which the perceiver has no practical means of understanding or managing the phenomenon.

I don’t claim to know the extent of said gifts or even the reason why said gifts do exist.  But I am able to recognize truths when I see them.  And because the observer doesn’t fully understand that which is being perceived, it doesn’t make that which is being perceived any less important or necessary or real.

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Let those who can see…

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Freedom… America… A Monster too BIG to sustain…

It is said every great empire eventually meets its ruin…

If you would be kind enough to allow an analogy, I’d like to give that which we call America the depiction of a living entity– that of a monster. A monster too big to be restrained or held in any type of cage. A monster that seeks only conquest as well as servitude and eventually devours all rivals. A Monster so big that its only concern is its own survival… A survival that it will seek out by any means. It will go to the extreme of eating its young or feeding off itself when necessary…

Freedom is its greatest weapon. Freedom is its biggest allusion.. The ideal of freedom is how it lures its prey in and feeds its young.  Yet there is so much unfreedom that the collective consciousness of its citizens can’t help but act out.  –Birthing monsters out of men. The unfreedoms push people to act out in a variety of psychic unconscious ways… Some seek true freedom through sexual exploits (sexual liberation or grotesquely deviant sexual acts) … Some seek true freedom through violent acts… Some seek freedom through drowning out the unfreedoms via drugs or alcohol… Some through food…And others, like their mother America, seek freedom through the conquering and controlling of others…

Yet this all works in America’s favor. A monster that requires human sacrifice to thrive… A human sacrifice because she is willing to eat her young…As is America’s economy is its life blood and America’s economy thrives off  of man’s vices… Man’s low self esteem and insecurities is truly the building blocks of America’s economic model–the end result of a vast spending power …

The strength of a man is to know who he is… The strength of America is for a man to be ignorant of self.. It keeps the skewed balance of power in tact… America keeps it’s young in zoo cages…Ignorant of the fact they are indeed men but reinforcing the idea that they are caged monsters as their mother.  These cages are grandiose and glamorized but on the most basic level they are zoo cages nonetheless… Inundated by brick and mortar… Some go hours upon hours without ever even seeing the sun…They wake up in a Box. They travel to work in a Box with wheels… Enter a big Box.. Sit in an box with windows if lucky.. If not a smaller box surrounded by other caged monsters of various degrees.. Leave work and find relief by staring into or at a Box.. Then finally go to sleep in the same box they woke up in–living to repeat the cycle.

Man’s biology has barely had enough time to adapt to this lifestyle of living… If we’re using the premise that men have been evolving over millions of years, this recent caged phenomenon of the modern era is a quite sudden influx.  Our bodies aren’t adapting as smoothly to this life style as we would have liked to imagine. Just look around at the rampant obesity and and influx of disease…We’re struggling to adapt physically because we’re really aren’t designed to live as a monotonous machine.. And If our body hasn’t adapted to such slavery one can imagine how the mind has struggled (better yet the soul)… The psyche or psychic undercurrent of an individual.. Our Subconscious is coping to such a dull perspective of reality… I imagine it constantly acts out and is the source of much deviance as a means of self-medicating… I imagine plenty of resentment is projected on any and all other li’l caged monsters America has birthed…I imagine it would be the cause of most destruction man inflicts upon each other.  For when you see others as monsters as opposed to men it becomes very easy to treat them as such.

What is the true nature of man.. The beginning… Who are you? What are you?   Simple questions… With profound implications… Maybe the answers alone could provide true freedom…

Shambles by the Bay… (An unwritten letter for a defenseless student..)

(Modern Covert Racism: Do Groomed Locks Illicit Fear?)

Not Christopher but a close enough example to how his hair was worn...
Not Christopher but a close enough example to how his hair was worn…

To whom it may concern,

In the politically charged and racially sensitive landscape of today’s America I have found myself in the crossfire of cultural insensitivity, racism, and prejudice.  The aftermath of a power wielding institution that has not the individual in mind but merely its own power—maintaining its own survival.  This phenomenon is being personified and actualized in the form of one Denis Kane (Basketball Coach: Mission Bay High School).  I am but a student, a student who is by no means perfect but a student who is trying nonetheless. I attend classes and a big part of my life is basketball.  It takes much of my free time, and it is a large focus of my life and of whom I want to be. I work hard like my classmates, I’m a tax paying citizen like my classmates, I expect to be afforded the extracurricular activities as my classmates, and to be held to the same standard as my classmates. My dream of playing basketball is being derailed by my conviction to stand up for my personal expression and cultural freedom.  I hate that the two are conflicting but I feel obligated to take a stand as integrity leads me to do so.

Allow me to briefly explain my situation.  I, Christopher (Blank), was kicked off of the basketball team for wearing my hair in a particular fashion.  I have my hair in locks (often referred to as dreadlocks) which are common to my ancestors and have great cultural context which I will not expound upon here.  In modern society I will admit, locks have taken on a phenomenon of their own, nonetheless I keep mine neat and aesthetic.  I was told by Dennis Kane that he didn’t “like the way that I had to remove the locks from my eyes” while playing basketball and that he wanted me to fix the issue. I took the proper protocol and decided to put my locks up.   This essentially is to braid the locks in a design that would keep them from hanging in my eyes.  When Dennis Kane saw this hair style he told me that the hairstyle was “ghetto” and he didn’t want “ghetto” people going to his games.  Implicating that I could not rejoin the team until my hair was cut. This leads me to my current dilemma.

Everything is everything...
Everything is everything…

I considered conforming to this man’s demands, but upon further contemplation I feel that this issue is bigger than me.  The scope of this issue is a microcosm of a far larger phenomenon that is embedded in the psyche of the American conscious—its cultural and social implications are far grander. The intolerance and xenophobia imposed by this man’s will is merely a perpetuation of a supremacists view point—a view point expressed and felt by many that commonly leads to discrimination.  For one man to deem my hair as “ghetto” what exactly does that entail?  Am I being judged for my cultural expression? If so is it deemed with a negative connotation?  It appears that I am being punished for one man’s fears and insecurities.  And for a public institution to support this man’s decision would have far greater implications.  Because I look a particular way, he has preconceived, ill contrived notions about a hair style and he is punishing me for his misconceptions.  Now I’ve taken heed to all the young individuals in the media that look like me and brutalized by individuals that harbor adjacent mindsets.  People see an image and they take action. ( See Trayvon Martin, Romie Mims, Jordon Miles, Joquan Wallace)

If my hair is “ghetto” it is also shared by Akintunde Ahmad and many other prosperous individuals.  With Mr. Kane’s Mindset, should Mr. Ahmad not be “allowed” to play sports?  With his 5.0 grade point average should he not be admitted to Ivy League schools because his appearance is “ghetto”, “threatening”, and not up to Mr. Kane’s standards?  The fact of the matter is Mr. Kane’s rationale is solely based off his personal bias; it is bigoted, unfounded, spiteful, and unjust.

.akintunde

This letter is a call to action.  I’m not asking for Dennis Kane to lose his means of income by being fired or anything of that nature.  But I am asking for him to recognize that an injustice has been done.  I am asking that this issue be brought to his attention in the manner of enlightenment not as an attack on his character.  I am asking that I be reinstated on the team and I am asking that no retaliation be taken upon me.  I do fear, that when a man who feels he has a secured arena of power and has that powered threatened, that he will be naturally inclined to retaliate.

Thank you for taking the time to hear my side of the story.

All for the good,

 

Christopher (Blank)

 

(Update: Since this letter was written, I regret to inform you that the above student did indeed cut his hair.  His fear kept him from going through with the letter.  I don’t know if it made a difference with him being on the team or not, for it is my personal belief that this coach had a bias against him.)

(I initially was going to leave out the coaches name school, but upon further thought the only innocent person here is the young man.)